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Number 71 post

Came to clear the dust for my blog. It’s rather dead huh?

I am not blogging like I used to.

This blog of mine actually reflects the other side of myself.

I may be a happy person; however I don’t really let my emotional feeling out to all.

It’s only when people visited this webpage knows my feeling.

Although Chinese New Year is coming, it seems that I am not as excited as usual. In my secondary school days, my class will be busy decorating the classroom so as to bring out the happiness and excitement for CNY.

When I am working full –time, it will be a busy period that I forgot that I off shift already. I will see my manager and supervisor going back to Malaysia to celebrate CNY while we had to work. And I will be super happy as i have 2 days off. But right now, it seems that there is no excitement of CNY in me. Maybe because that I have grown up, or is it ha the wee after CNY is sessional exam? Well, it is possible.

Places that I went before brings lot of memories.

Example?

I used to go to junction 8 for movies with friends before settling down to cineleisure

Marina Barrage? Committee outing, of course!

Taking the bus to yew tee that passes by my secondary school? All the good and naughty things we done in our secondary school life.

However, places that I used to go every time become a memory to me; or it becomes places I seldom go.

Places that become a memory to me will be my secondary school , class chalet, outing, etc.

And places that I seldom go now? Well, it is the clubhouse. I have not been going down since term 4 started. This place, well, I used to go down everyday when I first started. But now, club members should know that I am not as active as it used to be.

Somehow, I just feel that it is all about passion. I just don’t feel comfortable when I am at club. I mean, I am not close to anyone except some, I feel that I am a true stranger when I am at club.i don’t like to initiate a talk mainly because

1. I don’t know what to talk about

2. I am being ignored

3. I am a stranger and always a stranger

Somehow this passion is fading away, it is not as strong as it used to be which causes me not as active as I used t be.

I have my limits, is not that I cannot be active.

But this is no longer a problem to me. Whether I am present, I just feel that I am always absent.i feel weird when I am there, I feel weird as I am out of nowhere.

Somehow, I feel that I am out of nowhere, no matter where I am, whether is in class, with my clique, at work. It seems that I am closing up to myself, not as talkative as I used to, not enjoying the company of friend but rather spend time with myself.

Pretty emo huh?

I guess that’s me right now.

Somehow I find myself really lost in this world. I don’t know what am I doing, what am I thinking. My feeling has fail me, I can’t feel for my feeling now, and I don’t know my feeling now. The feeling of mine has numb ...

I am really lost

I wonder how long will I take to overcome this obstacles ..

Maybe days, months or maybe years perhaps ...